Saturday, 28 December 2013

peaceful warrior

On page 200 of my Meditations from the Mat book, Clyde B. writes “what I like about yoga is that it is not based on faith, it is based on experience. I know from experience that I carry stress in my body, and the postures are ways not only of releasing that stress but confronting it, experiencing it and understanding it. You have to learn to accept it, to live with it, and to let it go.”

This passage has helped me deal with the challenges that I’ve faced this year. I’ve also learned to be grateful for the gifts that I have received from life’s lessons.

2013 started off being a wonderful year for our family. Not only was I loving my first year teacher training but our new granddaughter was born during my weekend teacher training in February! Gracie, our angel, joined our three other grandchildren. What a great way to start off our year!

Life was going along just fine: beautiful grandchildren, great summer days spent at the lake with family and friends, an incredible workshop with Jan and Shauna (even though I asked myself the second day if I should be participating in this workshop). By day three of the workshop, I knew that I could let go of my fears of inversion and just enjoy the journey. I could feel the support from my teachers and yoga practitioners. Everyone was compassionate and I started to understand that fear was giving me doubts and anxiety. I was the only person putting undue stress on myself.

I completed the workshop with a calm mind and a new appreciation of yoga and my teachers. I felt so empowered and grateful to be a part of this community. I didn’t know what life had in place for me, but this workshop gave me the strength and the experience to accept it, to live with it, and to let it go.

Thank you Jan and Shauna for helping me find this lesson.

At the beginning of September, I came home from a yoga class, walked in to the house and knew from one look at my husband that something awful had happened. He had just received the news that a young man, Tyler, who has been with us for over 17 years and who we love dearly, was diagnosed with an aggressive bone cancer. This meant an amputation in the following weeks. This vulnerable young man, who suffers from FASD and who has always had the most positive outlook on life, could not understand the extent of his diagnosis due to his challenges. My family was devastated. I became stronger for them, ensuring them that his spirit would stay the same, and that we had to be strong for him. We have to live in the moment.

Less than two weeks later, my brother called me and told me he had to speak to me about something serious. His wife had cancer and needed surgery at the beginning of October. Karen is only 51 years old and has three sons. My brother was shattered. Once again, I found the strength to support him and told him to live in the moment, to not think too far ahead.

Last weekend, we celebrated Christmas with our young man, Tyler, who is walking with crutches and always smiling. I have a new appreciation for grounding the four corners of your feet and the tree pose. He is a true warrior and has not lost that positive outlook on life.

the author is currently enrolled in the yoga centre winnipeg 200hr  teacher training program

Friday, 13 December 2013

So after a very long break without any blogs the yoga centre blog has been revived!!!Once again the upcoming posts will be from participants in the Yoga Centre Winnipeg 200hr Teacher Training Program



I came to yoga (full time) in Feb. 2011.  I was suffering with extreme anxiety and my body was shaking.  My nervous system was exhausted and I could not relax.
I immediately found comfort in the yoga philosophy and the kindness of my fellow students and teachers.

Over the two years I have practiced faithfully. Each day coming to my mat with hopefulness.

I struggle with the fact that I have gained 15 lbs and I have not noticed much difference in my bodies flexibility.  I want to do it “right”.  I want to be “good” at yoga and I’m not.  I need props and I can’t sit in virasana.  I’m having a hard time with my expectations on how a posture “should” look.  I’m struggling with attachment.  I don’t like “letting go”.  All these struggles in yoga are the same struggles that I have life.  (go figure)

Now the good news …………sometimes, when everything is just right, when I’m lulled by my teachers soothing voice, out of my thinking mind, I find something that wasn’t there before-  SPACE. 
I can breathe deep, calm, quality breaths down to the tips of my toes. The breath brings a peacefulness that I didn't know existed.  
 That’s where I have grown. That’s where my diligence has paid off.   On the inside! 
Those magic moments are coming more frequently than they did in the beginning. I’m willing to look at my beliefs about how yoga postures and life “should”  look.  I continue to heal and grow.  I know I will never NOT do yoga.  I think it’s magical.
 I am forever grateful to my humble teachers.